Gearing Up!

2100, Saturday, 24 September

Apartment

            I felt restless. Tomorrow will be the day that I had been waiting for. We have a “mission” that will take place on a far away land. I began to ponder and ask myself: Am I prepared?

            We have been ordered by our “captain” to pack a few things necessary for our survival but then I don’t know if I’ll be able to survive with those things only so I gear myself up with some extra belongings.

            Previously, I was oblivious of what will be taking place the day after for I attended our Sabbath worship and all that was in my mind was to worship and praise God. I was just surprised when the sun set for it seems that I was overflowed with mixed feelings – tense and excitement. Before going home, I bought provisions and necessities so as to satisfy what I felt lacking when our “mission” will commence tomorrow.

            When I got home, At first, I don’t have the appetite to prepare my things and in fact it came into my mind that I would not be able to go for I felt I’m going to be ill but then, it’s just a feeling and the reality is that I’m not sick and I have to go tomorrow.

            After packing my things, and ensuring that all is prepared, here I am, translating into words the preceding words that transpired and will transpire.

            I’m not sure about tomorrow. I don’t have an idea. I can’t do anything that would put me at ease after gearing up, EXCEPT, of course PRAYING. Good Night!